FRAGMENTS

A lily among thorns

A part of me was once broken

I sought for love where I shouldn’t

I was in search for intimacy, devotion, security, from someone who didn’t have it

So much of life was invisible, inscrutable: layers of thoughts, feelings, outward events entwined with secrecies, obscurities, ambivalences and darkness strongly present even as I search

Each night was the same

My mind clouded like a dark, busy highway

Busy, yet empty

While the darkness engulfed me

Until one night, I saw a great light directly in front of me

I didn’t hear a voice, but I felt as if that shaft of light was the presence of God inviting me to step into it

To choose God instead of this earthly love that I wanted to turn and cling to

I hesitated just long enough for the light to vanish as quickly as it appeared…

A part of me was suppose to suffer for it but all part of me suffered for it

In choosing men, I lost the awareness of the very presence of God

I broke down my altar

My heart got tangled up, and now I was paying the consequences

All I got from those places were countless fragments

Fragments that shiver my heart

Causing me to fly on broken wings

Now, I have to put my pieces together

So I can regain myself, my complete WHOLE!

PRAYER!!!

I’m not sure why I chose this Topic. Maybe, because I have been thinking of how to step up in my spiritual growth with Christ and praying is an essential part of it.

What is Prayer?. I believe, most people have different definition for prayer but in the midst of all of these different definitions, we would realize that, it emphasizes on one thing “Coming to the presence of God”.

Prayer is the practice of the presence of God. Prayer is the place, where we admit our needs, adopt humility and declare our dependence upon God. Prayer is the needful practice of all Christians. It is the point where, we exercise our faith and hope. Prayer, gives us the privilege of touching the heart of our heavenly Father, God, through His son, Jesus Christ our Lord. Even the bible says “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you” (James 4:8).

Now, when is the right time to pray? Wait! Is there really a right time to pray? Honestly, there’s no right time for anything, just pray always! 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 “Pray without Ceasing”. In other words, we should always pray every time and at every place. In your bedroom, while walking, when you wake up, when taking a shower, while driving, on the bus to work, school… everywhere, anywhere and at any time.

Prayer is a way of life, we should continually be in an attitude of prayer at all times. Pray when you have, pray when you lack. Pray when the sun is shinning, pray when the rain is falling. Pray when you are happy, pray when you are sad. Pray when everything is going as planned, pray when things are not going the way you want it. Pray when you are healthy, pray when you are sick. Pray when you overcome temptation, pray when you get tempted and fall in it. Pray when you experience good and beautiful things, pray when you experience bad and ugly things. Pray when you are going through challenges, pray when you overcome challenges. Pray when you win, pray when you loose. Pray for the poor, the sick, the needy, the helpless, the homeless. Pray for your country, the country where you live, your family, your neighbors, the church, your pastor…Pray without hypocrisy (Matthew 6:5-8). Also, we should be careful, what we pray for, learn to pray for the right things and not selfish prayers. I pray, God teach us and lead us right, Amen!