Thanksgiving

I used to worry a lot. I worried about my future instead of living in the moments of my present, counting my daily blessings and be grateful. I needed that to change, ’cause it was killing me ever so slowly and leading to obvious frustration. So at the beginning of the year, I got a mason jar and labeled it thanksgiving. Using sticky notes, I write all my wins; big or small and some L’s. Whenever I’m sad, disappointed, worrying, feeling ungrateful, stressed, depressed and such, I take out at least 5 of my sticky notes from my mason jar, read out my past blessings, and in a little time, I find myself smiling, feeling grateful and peace over my current situation. Doing this, I realized that worrying have robbed me of my faith and also prevented me from moving forward. 

Now, going in depth of what I have learned from this new habit, I’d like to share my perspective on thanksgiving as a ‘progressing Christian’. 

it is important to understand the relationship between joy and thanksgiving. If you are a joyful person, I can guarantee that you count your blessings loudly and daily. However, If you are constantly living with daily mood swings, depression, frustration and live most of your life in the depths of despair, the lifestyle of thanksgiving will be hard for you. I strongly encourage you show gratitude for the little things, it goes a long way. if you are struggling with sadness or disappointment in life, make a list of things for which you are thankful. Don’t stop at 5 or 10 … be generous in your thanksgiving and make a list of 20 … or 50 … or 100 things for which you are grateful (You can get a mason jar or a journal, something to just remind you to stay grateful regardless of your situation).

I strongly believe that, Thanksgiving is the password that opens the door of His (God’s) presence to His people. And in His Presence there is fullness of JOY! I believe that for a Christian, thanksgiving should never be reserved for merely one day of the year or only one season. Thanksgiving should be a genuine daily lifestyle. A grateful heart is the fertile growing place for the seeds of joy to spring up and blossom in abundance. When you carry joy in you be sure that it will radiate in all areas of your life, through your challenges and to all people you are surrounded by. 

Happy Thanksgiving  to you and yours and I hope we’ll always have reasons to be grateful and thankful!

I’m thankful

Intimacy with my Lover

Understanding the power and importance of intimacy has brought meaning to my life and has drawn me closer to the ONE who loves me. I’m learning to use every part of me to love and form the habits of intimacy by;

Having a sit place with him  

I have to meet with him daily and share all that my heart feels

I tell him all about my situations because his presence gives me peace, joy and hope

He has the best words to say to me and his truth always set me free

So, I just obey whatever he speaks to me. 

He tells me I have to have a truth-life preserver that entails the use of positive beliefs and words that I need to hold onto daily, no matter the struggle or difficulties

He reminds me of how easy it is for negative thoughts to creep into my mind, however there’s much  power in positivity.  

Finding a place of grace with Him

He taught me to meditate on his love for me

He tells me to always look around me at all times, and this will remind me that I am breathing and living in the truth that he loves me

He says, I should never try to be perfect, pretend, please or perform for him to receive his love because he loves me just the way I am. 

Giving me a gift of forgiveness

He constantly reminds me of the need to offer forgiveness to everyone regardless of what they have done and who they are. 

Making him my healing plan 

While I’m in his presence, hearing his voice, I receive comfort, grace and find strength because he alone has the power to heal my broken heart and bind up my wound. 

Walking my grief journey

He tells me to let go of all my thoughts and feelings of loss, anger, guilt and regrets in his stream

While I hold onto the healing words he speaks to me so I can receive all of his compassion and comfort. 

Stepping out of troubles

He tells me to always make 911 calls to him and trust that it will always find its way to his ears

He tells me to be fearless, be still and watch what he will do for me in his response to my call in return.

For this, I worship him for who he is and what he’s done for me. 

Walking journey in light

Constantly meditating on the beauty and strength that comes from living in the light of the presence of my lover

Replacing the feelings of unworthiness with the truth of his light and love

Trusting in his daily out pour of his perfect love into my heart

Now, I exercise the belief, that;

I’m made with love

I’m made for love and intimacy

Surrounded by love 

One language I speak fluently is love

I AM LOVE because I am made in the image of my lover, God (the lover of my soul)

Made from love for love.

Child of Grace

The spring of living water that rushes through my wild heart flooding equidistant points and spilling hope into my every parched promises  

I’m nothing without it but with it I am everything

My whole life can tell that only by it, have I come this far

It’s my voice, when I am voiceless

For by it; shackles were taken off my feet and I am set on high ground 

The impossibles are made possible for me

I am fearless in the midst of troubles 

I am no longer living under the old tyranny 

I am delivered, healed, redeemed and restored 

I am kept me by the cross through my life’s struggles

My battles, pain and struggles end the way they should

My nakedness is clothed  

I feel good and when I feel good, trust that I’ll look good. 

I’m taken care of through life’s journey and never left stranded

I didn’t earn it, because I couldn’t work for it

It was freely given 

And I enjoy it every day

Ore Ofe, GRACE

May the grace of God be with you!

FRAGMENTS

A lily among thorns

A part of me was once broken

I sought for love where I shouldn’t

I was in search for intimacy, devotion, security, from someone who didn’t have it

So much of life was invisible, inscrutable: layers of thoughts, feelings, outward events entwined with secrecies, obscurities, ambivalences and darkness strongly present even as I search

Each night was the same

My mind clouded like a dark, busy highway

Busy, yet empty

While the darkness engulfed me

Until one night, I saw a great light directly in front of me

I didn’t hear a voice, but I felt as if that shaft of light was the presence of God inviting me to step into it

To choose God instead of this earthly love that I wanted to turn and cling to

I hesitated just long enough for the light to vanish as quickly as it appeared…

A part of me was suppose to suffer for it but all part of me suffered for it

In choosing men, I lost the awareness of the very presence of God

I broke down my altar

My heart got tangled up, and now I was paying the consequences

All I got from those places were countless fragments

Fragments that shiver my heart

Causing me to fly on broken wings

Now, I have to put my pieces together

So I can regain myself, my complete WHOLE!

Road to Purity

The popular word for this is called C-E-L-I-B-A-C-Y. Meanwhile, I prefer to call it ‘Purity Journey’ or ‘Road to Purity’ because I think people see celibacy as not getting the sex when it should actually be you starving yourself from the sex. Not getting sex is different from having it right on your table and sternly telling it, “I Don’t Want!”

Like every road on the streets, there are; potholes, bumps, sharp turns, sometimes narrow, other times wider and smooth. And like every journey in life, there are; self-discoveries, sense of self-worth, chills, thrills, challenges, obstacles, regression, progression, time to reflect, refuel, etc. All of these descriptions and more is exactly how my journey to staying pure have been. No lies, it’s been a struggle, but I have a spirit-man that is constantly awakening my soul to do better.

My decision to staying pure was made after I broke up in August 2016 with my first boyfriend of few years. I had come to the full realization that sex does not necessarily sustain a relationship like many people believe or would say. Not that we didn’t possess other qualities to keep the relationship fire burning, however sex was part of what kept us going, since we were in a distant relationship. I made the decision when I told my mom that we broke up. I had called my mom to let her what happened, and she asked me to come home.

Mom: these things happen but it will get better.

Me: *crying* but I love him. This isn’t fair. I was really hoping he’d be the only one i would have to love all my life.

Mom: well, it will be alright. I hope you weren’t sexually active with him?.

Me: *in my head* ‘we have been together for too long for you to think we haven’t been having sex. With my head bowed; yes, I have been having sex with him .

My mom so  disappointed and furious yet trying to be calm because she didn’t want to be insensitive to the pain I was feeling at that moment.

Mom:  And you didn’t tell me. Are you serious? Why would you have sex with a man you are not married to. With all the life lessons I have shared with you. You don’t need to look far to know all of this, a lot have happened to people around you and that’s where you should be learning from. Well, you will be alright…

At midnight, I heard my mom crying while she was praying and asking God to forgive her for not raising me right. I could not comprehend it. Why is she crying? Why is she the one asking God for forgiveness? Why does she think she didn’t raise me right because I had sex? It was this event that led me into making a ‘so-called promise’ to myself. A promise I have not genuinely upheld. I have found myself in different compromising situations, trying to work or build a relationship just because I was not true to myself or my promise. Now, that I’m genuinely waiting, I’m learning that it is easy to dwell on the loneliness when you are trying to honor the gift of sex and wait until marriage. But I know that the worst loneliness lies in the aftermath of compromise.  

Here are my Tobi’s nuggets; if you have not been deflowered and you genuinely want to wait, do not let anyone compel you into giving it up (I’m referring to both my ladies and gents). I know virgins of both genders, some who are close relations. For those who are actively sexual, please use protections. As an epidemiologist, I like to over emphasize the use of protections. Keep your condoms in your wallets! Now, if you have given it up at one point or the other and you’re thinking of ‘reclaiming’ it and want to wait just like me. I’d like you to know it can be difficult but achievable, you just have to be determined to be governed by your VALUES, not your heart.

Purity has values!!!

And here is how I try to remind myself that the journey is worth it. I always remember that, my road to purity;

  • Is a process, because I still mess up and have to get back on track…
  • Is governed by its values or I might forget that I have a promise to keep to myself (it is very important to maintain some mystique!).
  • Allows me to dream of the future, because it will keep my marriage fresh. (I have a desire to be married one day). I dream about my marriage and that keeps me falling in love with ‘my life partner I’m yet to meet’ or maybe we have met, and I don’t know.
  • Speaks boldly so that I can keep my life partner on track spiritually while he does the same for me.
  • Watches burning flames. My mom is my favorite burning flame. She has been faithful to me and has helped me to make right choices throughout my life’s journey.
  • Embraces wise guidance because I am still learning who I am through my singleness and how that fits into who my life partner is.
  • Helps me to love my creator at all cost. My road to purity is a covenant relationship with God. My faithfulness to God is a portrait of what my faithfulness will be to my life partner.

Let it be known that I don’t led a perfect life. However, my spiritual motto is “my sins are great, but His love is GREATER”. So, what can separate me from the love of Christ? NOTHING

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Unleashing the power within me.

On the train, going to school, got bored and decided to open my bible app. To be honest, sometimes I open it for the fun, just to keep my streak going. You know the Youversion (bible app) give you streaks for studying the word everyday. Today, I opened the book of Matthew and boom chapter 25. I think I was led my the Holy Spirit because there were some revelations revealed to me. While walking to the train station, I was just talking to myself (I do this quite often when I’m alone). I was evaluating myself and how much progress I have made so far in this year. Yea, I’m sure you would say we are barely in the second month of the year. Well, my motto for this year is “I am not doing mediocre things, because I am better than an average…”. Genuinely searching within myself, I knew I was not working the motto 100 percent, so I have to do better. I said a quick prayer “Lord teach me what and how to do things better than an average”. Now, in the train, I’m studying Matthew 25, getting to verse 14 through 30. And I’m like mmmmhhh, preach! You know how we do it when our local pastor trigger our souls with their teachings lol. Well, I begin to get revelations from these verses. Let me share them with us.

1.) We have all been given one, two, three or more talents by the maker; now the question is are we aware of the or these talents? If yes, are we using them as intended by our maker. It is very important we find our talent/gift. My definition of talent is something you are so good at doing, love doing and find joy and passion while doing it. Passion is the beginning of achievements.

2.) You have to believe yourself; verse 19 of the chapter reads that the third servant took that one talent/gift and hid it. From my understanding, I think the servant did not believe in himself to work the talent/gift that was given to him. So he thought he would just let it be. This is what happens when we don’t believe in ourselves. We let our gift just lay dormant within us, when we should be working it.

3.) Believe in your potential/gifts that you have if you know it; if the third servant believed in himself, he would have been able to believe in that one gift that was given to him. And he would have been able to work it so it can yield him more gifts or opened doors of greatness and blessings for him like the other two servants. The other two servant who worked theirs, got blessed by the King. I think this is what God does for us when we work with what He has given to us; proverbs 10:4, 12:24, 13:4….

4.) Not working your potential/talent/gift is a SIN; verse 30 reads that the unprofitable servant was casted into greater darkness and there was weeping and gnashing of teeth. I’m trying not to sound harsh, but the truth is, if you don’t work your potentials or gifts to life and fulfillment, God will ask you about it on the judgement day. I pray we don’t go to hell because we didn’t work our gifts into fulfilling God’s purpose.

5.) Avoid negative people and naysayers; the type of people we keep around us have influence on us. Stay away from people who don’t believe in you and in your dreams.

6.) Stay away from sin; sins prevent us from fulfilling God’s purpose in our lives. It can also cause us to extend the time of our blessings and breakthrough.

7.) Spend quality time with God; this is of utmost importance. When we spend time with our maker, He is sure to reveal our talent(s) to us. Strengthen our minds, so we can believe in ourself and the talents/gifts He has given to us. Let us know if we are using our talent in the way He intended. Help us filter negative friends from our lives. Most of all help us not to fall into temptation.

Sometimes working our talent/potential/gift is what brings the breakthrough we have been longing for.

Inspired by the Holy Spirit from Matthew 25: 14-30.

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My INDESCRIBABLE GOD (part 1)

  
If there was really words for my God, I honestly do not have them.

You see, my brain is not yet reached the point where it can form a THOUGHT that can adequately describe the GREATNESS of my GOD!

My lungs are yet to develop the ability to release the breath of enough agility to breathe out the GREATNESS of HIS LOVE.

My voice is so inhibited, restrained by human limits that it is so hard to sing the praises and worship to HIM.

If there was words for HIM, then I don’t have them. 
My God

HIS GRACE is REMARKABLE

HIS MERCIES are INNUMERABLE

HIS STRENGTH is IMPENETRABLE

HE is HONORABLE, ACCOUNTABLE, FAVORABLE

HE is UNSEARCHABLE, yet KNOWABLE

INDEFINABLE, yet APPROACHABLE

INDESCRIBABLE yet so PERSONAL.
HE is beyond comprehension, further than imaginations, constant through generations, KING of every nations

My words are so few in trying to capture the ONE TRUE GOD.

Using my vocabulary will never do, yet I have to use words as an expression of worship to my SAVIOR.

My SAVIOR, who is worthy and deserving of my praise

My heart extols the LORD, blesses HIS HOLY NAME forever

The LORD has won my heart, captured my mind and bounded both together

The LORD defeated me in my rebellion, conquered me in my sins

HE welcomed me into HIS PRESENCE, completely invited me in

HE made HIMSELF the object of my sight

Flooding me with HIS GREAT MERCIES in the morning

Immersing me with HIS MIGHTY FAVOR at noon

Drowning me with HIS SUFFICIENT GRACE in the night

Yet I still have no words for MY GOD…

PRAYER!!!

I’m not sure why I chose this Topic. Maybe, because I have been thinking of how to step up in my spiritual growth with Christ and praying is an essential part of it.

What is Prayer?. I believe, most people have different definition for prayer but in the midst of all of these different definitions, we would realize that, it emphasizes on one thing “Coming to the presence of God”.

Prayer is the practice of the presence of God. Prayer is the place, where we admit our needs, adopt humility and declare our dependence upon God. Prayer is the needful practice of all Christians. It is the point where, we exercise our faith and hope. Prayer, gives us the privilege of touching the heart of our heavenly Father, God, through His son, Jesus Christ our Lord. Even the bible says “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you” (James 4:8).

Now, when is the right time to pray? Wait! Is there really a right time to pray? Honestly, there’s no right time for anything, just pray always! 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 “Pray without Ceasing”. In other words, we should always pray every time and at every place. In your bedroom, while walking, when you wake up, when taking a shower, while driving, on the bus to work, school… everywhere, anywhere and at any time.

Prayer is a way of life, we should continually be in an attitude of prayer at all times. Pray when you have, pray when you lack. Pray when the sun is shinning, pray when the rain is falling. Pray when you are happy, pray when you are sad. Pray when everything is going as planned, pray when things are not going the way you want it. Pray when you are healthy, pray when you are sick. Pray when you overcome temptation, pray when you get tempted and fall in it. Pray when you experience good and beautiful things, pray when you experience bad and ugly things. Pray when you are going through challenges, pray when you overcome challenges. Pray when you win, pray when you loose. Pray for the poor, the sick, the needy, the helpless, the homeless. Pray for your country, the country where you live, your family, your neighbors, the church, your pastor…Pray without hypocrisy (Matthew 6:5-8). Also, we should be careful, what we pray for, learn to pray for the right things and not selfish prayers. I pray, God teach us and lead us right, Amen!

THANKFUL (Thanksgiving)

Thankful

With a grateful heart, I say, Thank you, God

Thank you for the precious gift of life.

Thank you for my eyes because I can see with them.

Thank you for my legs, because I can walk with them, I need no external or medical support.

Thank you for my hands, because I use them for it purpose, especially to write this.

Thank you because all the systems of my body are working effectively.

My heart is functioning well, I need no life support or pacemaker.

Thank you for the roof over my head.

Thank you for my siblings.

Thank you for my mom and dad, providing for them to provide for me and my siblings.

Thank you for the food I eat because some have food but cannot eat, some want to eat but have no food but I can eat whatever I want to eat at anytime.

Thank you for every challenges and circumstances because they make stronger.

Thank you for giving the grace to love even those that hurt me.

Thank you for wisdom. knowledge, understanding and excellent spirit.

Thank you for the power in the name of your son, Jesus that have broken every chains in in my life and in the lives of my families.

Thank you for everything you have blessed me with.

Forgive me for the times I complained and thought you were far away and not answering my prayers.

Forgive me for the things I have taken for granted because I know they are some people prayers.

I am so grateful, You have been so wonderful to me, my families and friends.

It has not being by my power or might but by Your grace and love.

I would never have made it without you, Lord.

I am GRATEFUL, THANKFUL and BLESSED!

According to His Purpose”

I know it is hard for most us to read our Bibles’. It is a real struggle!. We all have heard this; just by you opening your Bible, you already defeated the devil and you reading it, then you have conquered the devil. I have learned that, it is not just about reading the Bible but it is about knowing, understanding the content and when to use it in any situation you find yourself in life. The Bible is a daily guide!. It has everything we need to survive everyday of our lives. Take a look at today’s world and you will see that most of the things happening currently and will still happen, is in the Bible…

I just want to drop this here for everyone of us looking unto God for one thing or the other. He is faithful, if you do His will.

Roman 8 vs 28; “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose”

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